Tuesday, May 13, 2008

So tell me again why I was hopeful?

The second follicle check did not go well. The one and only follicle that had good size to it stopped growing. RE said we'll do another U/S on Friday but that after that we won't. I'll get to go another two weeks unmonitored and if I don't start my period by then it's on to yet another round of provera. I think I still have my other prescription some place.

Words cannot describe the immense disappointment I feel. Ray was in the room with me this time. I don't think he knew what was going on because he didn't say anything to me after. He was ticked because I lost his keys-nice reaction. Here I am miserable and all he can do is be pissy about his keys, which are in the house we just didn't have time to look for them.

The RE said that it's possible the 50mg dose of clomid is too low and that I need a higher dose. That's fine the clomid 'script is a lot less expensive than the ovidrel. So if this cycle doesn't work out for triggering at least I won't have to get another ovidrel shot.

I am reading a lot about PCOS and clomid though and what a lot of REs do is supplement the clomid with an injectable every other day in order to stimulate the ovaries. I'd hate to tell an RE how to do her job but I am wondering if she is ignoring my PCOS and just treating me as if I have unexplained infertility. I don't know. I am just so miserable today...

I guess I'll keep my hope up by hoping that they will grow more in the next three days! *sigh*


Cathy said...

Sorry it's not looking so good.

My impression is that RE's have a "base" protocol to start with. It's something that works for a lot of people, but it's a low-risk sort of protocol. (What if you had responded strongly and had 10 eggs? Not good EITHER.) So they see how you respond and then next month they'll tinker with it.

It takes time, sure. But it IS forward progress.

Good luck. I hope that follicle grows ripe and juicy in the next few days. You never know.

C-Rah said...

Aw, sorry it didn't work out this time around. You're being very patient, that's for sure. Keep your chin up. Time will need to pass for sure, but you ARE moving in the right direction.

Ann M. said...

Ugh. I'm so sorry it didn't go as well as you'd hoped. I agree with Cathy in that the doctor probably has a base they usually start from. But it wouldn't hurt to ask about your research you've been doing. At the very least, it shows the doctor that you want to actively participate in your treatment.

Just know that every theory that doesn't work is still one step closer to finding one that DOES. I know that's not much consolation right now. I am continuing to send you good grow vibes.